Fallen

I named Fallen.

Because I leaped hope that I can fly.
If otherwise, we just drop like a rock wondering the whole way down.
Why and hell did I jump?
Here I am falling, and there’s only one person who makes me feel like fly.

I hope that one has the same feeling as me.

Wish a beautiful year of Ox

I got up late today at my friend's home, we had a nice dinner last night. I feel great sense of gratitude today, because everyone here today is smiling. Even bus driver and passenger say blessing to each other on the bus. When I went by a temple, people went there for the first prayer for the New Year, and they are in a good order. I think that's why I like Hong Kong. :)

Hope faithfully

I just feel life is too good for me whenever I finish swimming and rambling on campus.
Nothing to fear because nothing I have at the moment except for hope.
I am able to swim as many turns I'd like now and even to swim in the deep water area.
We just try and try,wish and wish, when it comes true.
There's always a hope deep in my mind, no hurry to wait it to come true on condition that we hope it wholeheartedly.
I'm patient enough.
And I still hope there'll be a life long love in my life.

For the Chinese New Year of Ox, I hope new year bing us everything we wish for and everyone stuff their bellies good !

Gradually Change

I have thought I won't change a lot when I moved to Hong Kong, because I'm still a hard working girl and be nice to others.
I kept on my daily schedule to practice guitar, to read, to look for news, to practice Cantonese, and exercise every week.
But something does change in my mind especially in those doom days. I still hold my right hands by my left hands when I am sleeping, but the way I support myself have gradually changed.
I was no longer that little girl wherever I am, I was the lovely one who favored by elders.
Time is different; I am now an independent woman to love myself and to think into other people's places.

Cherish

It's too hard to get people close nowadays and everybody seems very busy.
Even the new technolgy make the world much more closer,and even there's a chance let us meet.
So we must cherish when we get closer,not to hurt, and once we stand close to each other, the world is good.

Hopefully Fallen

sick

This time I can't resist my illness. I got some cough after finishing my period, and went to Shenzhen the following day, and got fever when came back. I thought I recovered yesterday,but passed out when I had toothbrush this morning,feeling sick like the symptom of pregnant. Never had such feeling of illness before.

Maybe I just got too much sleep and frail. I'll make another resolution that I'll go to swim again after recovery. And Plus, I don't want to use facebook again, which makes me feel even more lonely. People intentedly keep distance with each other pretending they are very close-As said by a friend.
Everyone watch others' lives in the facebook but trying in vain for their own lives.

At least, I'm still a good student. I'll go on my routine and finish my daily plan on my bed....

a nothing moment can turn into something huge

It would be very dangeous and pains taking.
But an amazing result is waiting for us like butterfly effect which is worth the expectation.

I'm not a good girl

I seem obedient but I had lots of acts of rebellion.
I smile to everyone in the day, but lonely to myself at night.
I take healthy food but poisoned by chocolate and wine, a temporary feeling making up for love.
I am independent as it seems but I lack of security just because nothing can be dependent for the moment.
I’m ambivalent.
At least,I'm me.
But what the hell I am doing, I haven't been in a relationship for over 2 years.
That's not right thing for Fallen.Where's the girl who was dedicated?
What's scared on earth? No, it's just not in the right time and right place.
Anyway enjoy the single free life in Hong Kong which supposed to be very interesting.

At least, I'm a good student.

I do belive in Karma

I do believe in predestination because I met several tourists on Christmas Eve and today on the same train compartments in 2 different cities.
If we had the same destination, we can probably become friends.
Now I do believe in we shall meet again in the same city even if we may not have the same destination.
The alternation of the unexpected and expected objects does construct one surprise after another.

I don't know why I feel so good in another city, I mean a city not a country, because country sometime made me feel just a temporary evasion about the real life. But a new city blows me a new air and illusion that I have my new life starting here without any other distraction.

I am a city born and city bred girl, sometimes the city is too big and too crowded for me to tolerate. I have estimated before that Shanghai is 6 times bigger than Hong Kong and Hong Kong is the city 6 times bigger than Edinburgh- friend's Li jing's another city.

I prefer to live in a small city with high living quality but working in the different cities in this world is another better choice.