我的地盘我做主

其实也很想写中文的，但是在现在这个英语广东话上海话混杂的时间段，我宁可在一个人的时候不要用普通话，即使用上海话都和广东话比较接近。

虽然一来到香港，我就觉得自己丝毫没有不适应的地方，可能一来就碰到了很多老一代的上海人在这里。 周围人也都是来自世界各地。没有隔离感，生疏感。 不过开始融入这个社会，可能还是要开始交这里的朋友开始。

我始终觉得当我在不断付出的时候，满足感和拥有的惊喜是在不断交替中的。 当我有了自己每天的routine 和每周的routine,有了固定的出勤活动的时候，当我游刃有余地安排自己的生活的时候， 我每天都可以对自己笑一笑了。 可能我还是那个乐观的女孩，到任何一个地方都能欣赏这个地方最美最有特色的东西。除了不喜欢上海。 不过最近深刻的觉得，我的中文退步了， 今年貌似这是第一篇中文。也将是最后一篇。

在中午在一家粤菜馆吃了上海小笼包，看了牙，去图书馆借了一大堆书，随后又在H&M，MNG大肆采购颇为得意地采购了一番便宜货，又在学校空荡荡的餐厅吃了一碗叉烧饭后，我满意而归。。。。在幸福的和韩琴打电话之余，不幸我的burberry的钱包被校车司机捡到。。。十分开心地被保安部的人用粤语嘲笑，并和楼下勘察用我今天颇为满意的粤语套了下近乎之后，我又给老爸老妈打了个异常亲热举家欢庆的电话，哄的两个老人家喜笑颜开，终于，
我可以很兴奋的守着2008的最后2个小时，因为充满了矛盾和不幸的2008即将一扫而光，给整个全球人民带来折磨的2008也将谢幕，2009将是一个很有盼头，有收获的一年！

虽然没有人分享，我默认很多人都在默默地和我分享了～可见我不是一个适合做学问的人，真的学问需要独自一个人的沉浸，这种人不许别人分享也无暇与人分享，而我不是，我期待着可以读其他人的心声，期待能与世界上各种奇妙的事情交流，所以我适合读communication。

仔细体会一下这三个多月的生活，出去闷在屋子里面复习的20多天，证实了我当初的预言， 只有行动才能带来无数惊喜。很多想也想不到的事情，碰也碰不到的人，在一个新的地方逗留之后，都有可能发生，都有可能遇见。很有可能，你就成为了before sunset的女主角，尽管结果还是过着属于自己的人生，但在记忆力留下了绝对在回忆中留下了巧克力般的美味。

特别特别喜欢JK Rowling的一句：It’s impossible to live without failure or sth unless you live much cautiously that might as well not have lived at all- in which case you fail by default.

我的生活中充满了不小心因为我时常就在平静的外表下做了很激动的事情，所以就意味着我不会被自动地淘汰。。。如此自我安慰作为我2009年生活的动力， 许下一个仍然还是fairy tale resolution， 希望2009年我们能重聚。

hug

Monday, December 1, 2008 at 8:36pm

I need to chat with people face by face especially when I am writing damned paper with infinite words and living in such a residence sitting on a mountain surrounded by mountains with only noise by myself~I could enjoy it for no more than 3 days instead of 20 days...That's why I could call Natalie on the phone for 3 hours.....I know at last why facebook got its name because we just book the "face" on it~Who wanna book me his or her face now? All I need is a warm chat and hug ~

A country travel

I just come back from volunteer work&outing from a country park in Ma on Shan. My volunteer work is to help those underprivileged women and children which has done several times before.I like children and felt much sympathy for these women some of whom are left by their husband and some of them are beaten by their husband. Their children are the sufferers of such ill-treament. Most of them came from mainland China. As a girl also came from mainland China, I can’t feel just as the same as they did although it’s the first time I left my parents and friends for quite a long time. But I can feel such a feeling of insecurity. Actually, everyone is trying their best to make up for the insecurity in their life even rich people. As one of these women says, all you can do is to correct yourself and try your best to help others. Keep on considering yourself suffers more. I understand the false not only by the husbands, which is the result of wrong combination and treatment.

I’m quite lucky that I have such a chance to hang out to feel the clean atmosphere in the mountains and to chat with these women and play with their child. I really love children although I have none at all and I don’t know whether I would have one in the future because I wanna give my child the best happiness in the world instead of suffering what like these children. Move on, maybe I can make that. Maybe not only one Child：）

Another luck is that I met several cows in the mountain. They were’t scared by the men at all. Some of them touched people with their tongue like dogs. It’s auspicious I could meet cows cause they are the symbol of the industrious people in China. I wish everyone good luck in the coming Chinese “Cow” year.

Never to refuse

It's lucky if you found someone who never refuse you.Alternatively,you are lucky if you both found someone who never refuse you and never be refused by you. Maybe that's your best friends or the one.Actually,everyone want to be a nice person and not to be refused.But are you lucky enough to find such a person around you?

some words changed a whole life

A said sth to B serveral years ago.
C said sth to B two years ago.
New tracks for both A and B turned to another way in their life.
Actually , I'm the A.

animal instinct

A cat will rush out if there’s voice of another cat outside even a strange one.She is just so hurried.Translated from a chinese saying, this is typical behavior- “like crowded”.Dogs and cats tend to find buddies to play withBut how is our human beings…..At least, I’ve lost such an instinct to see such a crowded yelling in the public place.But lucky that I’ve still got the instinct to get touched or huged~
By the way,” animal instint” by Cranberries is my favorite song.

Take heart

Life has changed a lot these days. New environment brought me some unexpected challenges except that I have nothing at all for now but anything in the future I have a blind date with Hong Kong. I would have to say, take heart~ move on ~
The cost of liberation means I have to enjoy the air of loneliness and learn to self-entertain even though I’m not used to sleep by myself.